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Monday, February 2, 2009

The Birth of a Writer: On Why I Blog


I've been blogging at Dirt & Noise a little over a year now. I started just to have an outlet to write and get thoughts out of my head and onto paper. Well, proverbial paper. I missed my gig at the local newspaper and figured a blog was the next best thing. Soon I learned that blogging was even better. My readers are my editors. And my fans, my cheerleaders, my challengers.

Then blogging became a part of me. An addiction if you will. It also transformed me.

I think it's safe to say that all the crazies having a dance party in my head were causing a fair bit of anxiety in my overall being. I often felt overwhelmed and underwhelmed at the same time; a strange paradox of an existence. I was full of energy and ideas. And admittedly full of piss and vinegar. I was a veritable rolodex of zany ideas and blasphemous thoughts. I was all dressed up for the dance, but there was no high school gym decorated for the big event. And so there I sat alone with my thoughts, billowing tulle falling at my ankles, patent leather slingbacks slung through my manicured fingers.

And so I created my own dance party.

I blog for the obvious reasons. It's fun. It's an exercise in writing. It's a storytelling wonderland. It's a walk down Memory Lane. It's a way to share out of the ordinary anecdotes with friends and family. But it's so much more.

Blogging is therapy, but a whole lot cheaper. And thankfully for Mac Daddy, it's also way cheaper than retail therapy. Blogging forces me to dig deeper than I would otherwise let myself go. I come face to face with some buried emotions and experiences. I reflect on my own brand DNA, my shortcomings of motherhood, my worries, my celebrations, my fears. Some things I've seen crop up in my head are still too painful or controversial to manifest into words. But thanks to blogging, they're there, off the so called back burner and poised for capture and introspection.

Blogging also makes me think. I see life's events great and small through a different lens now. Rather I see them through various lenses. I can leverage my words to share ideas, heartaches, causes, or simply reflections. I can even use my words for good. Through my writing I vent, rant, judge, wail, and whine. I also use my cyberspace real estate to inspire, promote, tease, and tickle.

I have always aspired to be a writer. When my hopes were dashed to get into medical school, I turned my dreams to writing. Then the real world whacked me upside the head and forced me to get a job. A paying job. After years of building a retirement nest egg from the tender age of 22, funding an obscenely expensive graduate school run, and starting a family, I have decided that now is the time. The time is now to put my writing goals in overdrive. So my blog provides me with fodder for that book deal I covet. I won't see my name embroidered on a lab coat but I just might see my name on a book jacket. A girl can dream, right?

And so, my blog gives me a voice.
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6 comments:

Meg said...

I blog to meet others, share my thoughts on topics of interest & hopefully one day to make a name for myself :) blogging fun, engaging & motivating. i never considered myself a writer, yet I blog almost daily!

Mocha Dad said...

I blog to interact with other parents and writers. Although, I have had my writing published in traditional publications, blogging allows me to have instant gratification. I write, I publish, I get feedback.

dadshouse said...

Right on! I write and blog for many of the same reasons. I hope you get that book deal. I'm working towards mine, as we speak... :-)

Jen L. said...

Delurking to say I love your blog and enjoy your posts on Deep South Moms!
I blog to vent, to chronicle my life as it happens, to interact with my family and friends and with people I have never met and may never meet. I love reading comments and hearing from my readers.

Kelly said...

Ilina!
Go for it love, write that damn book & make us all proud!
I, too, would like to join the literary world with you one day. To impact lives through the use of words is one of the greatest things anyone can accomplish in a lifetime.

XOXO
Kelly

KTP said...

That's some good shit right there. Like I have said before, I think we have "Why I Didn't Go To Medical School" stories to write.